Hi, i still feel miserable because my breakup with my boyfriend. He was pretty much younger than me (college guy/me, in my 30....dhdhadhs) but i still miss him. A LOT.
Remembering that Theosophy tells much about unattachement, and i'm trying to learn that phase on life, of the unnatachement...still with the idea of believieng that probably in 'a future' we could be together...but really, i DON'T KNOW if i can manage to stand these phase in life. My life feels pretty dull. I KNOW THAT I have to start do do STUFF FOR MYSELF... I alkways have tought that fulling oneselfness is a bit selfish, (the LIFE that half US's lives! isn't it pretty selfish, a bit? and frivolity is not even consider an issue there!!) pant pant pant...sorry...I am feeling a bit anguish with these...
I HAVTA KILL the evils 'toughts' and desires of MY f...mind...and try to find some peace of mind inside. But I'm no Buddha. I'm a regular pretty average human girl...trying to find some peace of mind...somebody can help?
BTW, i got my horoscope and natal chart recently. very BAAD issues appear: Pluto in seventh house isn't no good, i know...also my other issues in my chart (If SOMEONE KNOWS i'll be glad) sun, Pluto, venus, in conjuncion ; sun, mercury in 4th house, i think i'm in between 4th and 5th house; venus is in the 5th, seems...)
Feeling pretty miserable in my life. I resist to spend the rest of my life as a spinster. Probably in US's, the chicks LOVE to live alone and have free relationships unmeainingful...and frivolities like that', but i'm a very lovable chick...(very f...romantic btw!)
Needing the love on my life...BUT...I KNOW WHAT TO DO...(the unatachement...like the Buddha did...but is SOOO DIFFICULT!! :'-( really)
If SOMEONE has any tips like, some kind of meditation, or something...i know is something of Zen (also in Hermetics , the 5th principle...i always miss that...the rithm law!! geee...)
Knowing what to DO...but these f...toughts!! i even moved from the city, but is SOO difficult...the worse...i know he still feels for me...but he's young...and confused...but i have to cut it...for REAL...REALLY...
I KNOW what to do...I KNOW that if he's for me, he will return...hoping is not very late...but i have to cultivate unnatachement of things...for NOW AND FOR GOOD...but it HURTS A LOT.... A LOT...
Some good ideas? advices? some good yoga practice? Here in Ensenada I know i can practice some vinyasa, some gentle practices of yoga and that. also good spots to walk a lot. I like to walk. but the f...mind...never stops.
Good ideas for stopping this crazy mind of mine?
I'm a Libra/Gemini and that's why i'm kidna crazy when i fall in love. wishing NOT to be as crazed about, and think MORE on my persona. but...those devilish toughts... some good ideas for killing them? Yoga? Zen? o_O
THANK you in advance. you theosophists, in a principle, are my REAL, my ONLY family. like to chat with ya and not feeling so lonely now.
Wishing you the best, my dear theosophists.
(for meanwhile, I'll try to mantralize the "OM" hoping it works)
P.S. Meanwhile, I've been watching that serie of "Life on Mars" BOY did i LOVED the final chapter -altough i haven't seen all of the chapters!- the final chapter, my dear theosophists, enlightened me on much stuff...like, for example, of the thing that THIS LIFE IS NOT REAL - i found a sensation GREATER than when I watched "Matrix"!- these life...well...as a series of much more lifes...so...when...WHEN?
When i'm gonna WAKE UP??
Hoping, than when I WAKE UP - like the caracter in the final chapter -i found myself finally, living my REAL LIFE...in MARS... or whatever reality in the faraway stars, or planets, i'm really living ....wouldn't be that nice??
Boy I REALLY LOVE THAT SERIE! you should watch it...i have NEVER seen something that puts our reality in SO close perspective...are WE living in REAL? in 2011? or are WE living in real in 1973? or earlier? or are WE in reality...living our life...on MARS??
I wish for the latter to be the REAL....the REALITY ABOVE/BEYOND TIME/SPACE...FOR REAL...FOR GOOD...OUR BELOVEDS...WITH US...FOR REAL....FOR GOOD....FOREVER.... n.n
Hoping and wishing for the best, that the crazy thing that will happen in 2012 (that NOBODY knows hehehe) has a bit of that.
cheers my beloved theosophist friends!! and...if someone has some ANSWERS to my inquiries, i'll be very glad.
Estrella (*TRYING HARD TO KILL MARAS AND MAYAS' HERE!! PANT PANT PANT* DIE SELFISH EVIL DIE....PFFF....ARGGGHH* Fighting monsters! )