About the time I started school (5 or 6), I came to a startling realization, doing "what I can do" was getting me into a lot of trouble.
The concept of "just because I can, doesn't mean I should" was formed.
I've spent the last 45 years trying to figure out the meaning of should.
As my understanding of "myself" grows, the way I see everything else changes, the information I get from any particular thing changes, my understanding of "myself" grows.
it's been a wild ride. The view from the peaks, awe inspiring, in the valleys, not so much, but all of it of my own choosing, born of my perceptions.
The understanding that this physical body would have lived a much different life, were it not for my personal connection to consciousness, makes it pretty clear to me, that whatever the truth is, whatever existed before all this, has touched this determined animal body, and given me life.